Matias...My Heaven!

Three years have passed since you left; yet it still feels like yesterday. The memory of your laughter, your enchanting smile, and the profoundness of our conversations are still so vivid in my day to day. I don’t ever want it to go away, even if it hurts. I rather live my life with sorrow, than with the idea of the memory of you fading away. Matias, I want you to understand it is not only about the sorrow, I am today, even more aware of the gifts I receive from you every morning I wake up. I am more compassionate with others, and not afraid to take risks and share my new perspective of life. Even though it might seem ironic, I have learned to live with an eternal heartache, yet, feel happier than ever, thanks to you. All those little details of life that used to bother me don’t bother me anymore. I can now understand that everything that happens, good or bad, happens with a bigger purpose. I understand that we all have a story to tell, and with that story, a message to send ...

My dearest Matias,  Just a week ago we celebrated two years since you returned to Heaven. Today we celebrate eight years since you gave us one of the greatest gifts of all... Eight years ago, today, we became parents for the first time. Eight years ago, today, we understood what "Unconditional Love" really meant.  Eight years ago, today, our minds started to open up to all the possibilities of creating a better world for you; our number one priority was for you to be happy, and we took on that responsability with great joy and determination. As you started to grow up, you started to unveil the wonders you came to share with us. Miraculously, our lives started to be guided by the principles of love and happiness. It was amazing to witness how you understood that  it was so easy to love and be happy, you constantly questioned why  people got angry or had disagreements. In my desire to give you a better life, you guided our conversations towards ...

Matias, since you were born, Roberto and I started to make decisions driven by the immense love we felt for you. Our biggest desire was to enable you to live life to the fullest; to enjoy many different experiences and, furthermost, to have options. Honduras, being the  beautiful country that it is, at that moment, seized to be the better option. The day that your father shared the news that his position  in the company he worked for was being eliminated, I immediately knew it was the beginning  of a new stage in our lives. Monterrey became the most sensible option, being that your father had family that would be able to support us in the transition process. When you finally got here, being a one year old toddler, you embraced that transition so naturally. You welcomed your new family with excitement and such love, that made me adapt with grace and optimism to a new culture. All I wanted was you to be happy, and I immediately felt that here in Monterrey, th...

A little more than a year has passed since I last saw you, since I heard your voice and felt your warm touch. I won’t lie, my life is not the same without my handsome companion here with me. This world is tough, unreasonable, and sometimes unbearable. You made this experience worth living, you had a way of helping us see only beauty and good in people. You made us better human beings. Then Julieta was added to the mix. She completed our family with her natural beauty and amazing energy to enjoy life, laugh and play. She has been our "rock", without her we would have not been able to get to this moment. Matias, there was a moment in my life were I felt COMPLETE; I felt extremely blessed, and I needed nothing else. I had everything... I had you and Julieta. Then the inevitable happened, I lost you! But you have been present in my life, ever since, in such an amazing way, that for some reason, I have found strength to continue living.  Now, as you knew before all of...

It has been nine months since you parted on your new adventure, yet I feel it was yesterday when we had one of our many conversations, laughed, and made plans for a future that would never exist, at least, here on Earth.  Matias, you continue to be so present in our lives. You continue to find ways to remind us that you are still here with us. You continue to be the engine that keeps us moving. It is outstanding how the seeds you planted, in your short but fulfilling life experience, are now growing. These seeds are what now remind us of our purpose, of the promise of love we made to you and Julieta.  We are consistently reminded of the stories you shared, not only with us, but with all of those you loved unconditionally. Your words, which at that moment we felt were sweet, innocent, and full of hope and love, have now become the prophecies that mark the path our family needs to follow. Your aunt Lorena, was whom you shared the news that your brother, Lucas, would...

I n a place were many say time does not exist, I can only imagine how easy it is for you to foresee the day when we will meet again. For me it seems as forever, and yet, I know that for you it is just a minute away.  Matias, there have been days when I get lost dreaming of that moment when I will able to see you running towards me, calling out "Mami", that day when I will feel your warm arms hugging me tight, once again. I have played that moment in my mind over and over again, yet, I know that I am still here, and time (years, months, weeks, days, minutes, seconds) will continue to be present in my life. Now more than ever, time has taken a leading role in my life. Out of nowhere I transitioned from a life were time was moving faster than light, to a life were time has inexplicably stopped.  I am aware that now, I will have to move on finding ways to make time fly.  I think of what you would do, what you would say. I see you smiling at me,  I hear you telli...