New Beginnings

A little more than a year has passed since I last saw you, since I heard your voice and felt your warm touch. I won’t lie, my life is not the same without my handsome companion here with me. This world is tough, unreasonable, and sometimes unbearable. You made this experience worth living, you had a way of helping us see only beauty and good in people. You made us better human beings.

Then Julieta was added to the mix. She completed our family with her natural beauty and amazing energy to enjoy life, laugh and play. She has been our "rock", without her we would have not been able to get to this moment. Matias, there was a moment in my life were I felt COMPLETE; I felt extremely blessed, and I needed nothing else. I had everything... I had you and Julieta. Then the inevitable happened, I lost you! But you have been present in my life, ever since, in such an amazing way, that for some reason, I have found strength to continue living. 

Now, as you knew before all of us, a new member has come to continue to help us to write our family's story. Even though the process was unbearable and confusing for me, ANA LUCIA, is now here with us... Matias, she is BEAUTIFUL. Your baby sister reminds me of you when were a baby, and then, Julieta, she is glowing. She will be such an amazing big sister, because she had had such an amazing big brother. You are everywhere, my love.

 I promise to keep moving, to continue to honor you, to live life with compassion and understanding of others. I will seek happiness and give love to all who surround me; I will be the best mom and example for your sisters. I am terrified, I am not going to lie, but I know you continue to guide my path, and together we will achieve our goal...In the meanwhile, I vow to focus on putting my energy on this "new beginning" you gave us, your beautiful and amazing sisters!

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