Matias...My Heaven!

I n a place were many say time does not exist, I can only imagine how easy it is for you to foresee the day when we will meet again. For me it seems as forever, and yet, I know that for you it is just a minute away.  Matias, there have been days when I get lost dreaming of that moment when I will able to see you running towards me, calling out "Mami", that day when I will feel your warm arms hugging me tight, once again. I have played that moment in my mind over and over again, yet, I know that I am still here, and time (years, months, weeks, days, minutes, seconds) will continue to be present in my life. Now more than ever, time has taken a leading role in my life. Out of nowhere I transitioned from a life were time was moving faster than light, to a life were time has inexplicably stopped.  I am aware that now, I will have to move on finding ways to make time fly.  I think of what you would do, what you would say. I see you smiling at me,  I hear you telli...

It has been almost 5 months since you parted back home...Heaven, but I am still here on Earth. Since the first day you left, I magically understood that this was the way we had agreed things would happen. I understood, that God's plan, our plan, was taking its PERFECT course. I won't lie, the pain and emptiness I felt at that moment were tremendous, but bearable because I had you in my life. I still have you and will forever have you with me. Having you in my life  is greater than anything I have ever experienced. Having you and loosing you, has been a gift, one that I still don't understand clearly yet, but something I am sure of is, that the idea of not having you at all makes that sense of emptiness grow even deeper. I am what I am now, because I am your mother.  Matias, being your mom has been amazing! Your are and will always be "The BEST gift GOD has given me". I made a promise, I promised to love you and take care of you during your time here on Eart...